why do I do what I do…does anyone really notice…if I just stopped doing everything I do would they even care? I love to do the things that I do…but when it becomes assumed or expected that I will just be there and do it, it makes me angry. When I try to explain how I feel and I am treated as if I were a small child, given the silent treatment…really? I have tried to do what is right, but I am getting tired of trying. I just don’t have much left to give. How could things have gone from friendship, to love, to betrayal, to nothing… just tired. Surely there is someone out there who would love me for who I am…maybe then I would be noticed, but then…would I even care that you noticed?